was hoped that the Federal health status worsened. It's something that we already had psyched Esther. Fede the apparent improvement was temporary and the problem is not resolved without surgical intervention. As she told us "... will only get worse and when we have to intervene" and, as if it were a prophecy, so it has. The morning of day 9 I was in the room next to Bethlehem. She was fast asleep, but I, though I tried, it was impossible. I kept him around and around to what I had seen that day, or walk to Miguel killed and those without attack. In my mind I was thinking about logical explanations when the night silence was broken by a piercing scream. Bethlehem woke up instantly and I instinctively sat up in bed. The first cry was followed by several more. They were screams of pain and at that moment I knew who they were. By the way, grabbed the gun from Bethlehem and underwear ran down the corridor, until you reach the room Fede. While going through the other rooms, they all of them were opening and peered the heads of some members of the community. In one door out Eduardo and started running beside me. We also continued Hans. When we reached the Fede room and opened the door, we found a gruesome scene. Fede was on the floor, vomiting and writhing in pain as he tried to calm Esther. This, seeing us with a clear face scared told us "There was what I said. It has been perforated appendix. Or we intervene now or die here. Calling all! Let's take two to the autopsy room while I prepare everything! Go! " . With time running out, Eduardo and I took a Fede, I Eduardo shoulders and the legs, and started running way to the autopsy room. It was no easy task, as Fede kept moving abruptly and screaming. Along the way we were leaving people in the room to browse and many such closed, hiding. Down the hall we met with Michael, we looked at her anxiously. Did not tell us anything and we went through him like a lightning bolt. We arrived in the autopsy room and there was Esther and Bethlehem, both in white coats. A Eduardo and I were given a couple that we immediately after leaving Fede on the stretcher. While he tried to reassure Esther and prepared the material, accompanied by Elena Ivan appeared. The second was also a white coat while shaking like a pudding. Ivan took from his bag a bottle of whiskey and as he said in a friendly tone Fede "Come on, tough guy, we're with you. This will be a walk, you'll see. Let us drink, I'll walk you in the drunk ..." and he poured the bottle into the mouth. The first drink spit and shouts of pain, said "Put on anesthesia!! What do you do?!" . We all looked and saw that in Bethlehem a few tears escaped her. At these words, Ivan stare at us with a tremendous face of powerlessness. I had never seen that kind of grin on his face. Ivan knew moron, psychotic, violent, easygoing ... Ivan but not compassionate. Did not last long that grin on his face and returned to give for another drink. Esther spoke to us in a broken voice, saying "It's impossible ... we can not do this, dammit. As I'm going to cut to the quick. Do you know what is going to suffer?" . His hands were a show. They kept shaking violently. From my mouth came the following: "No we like it, much less see Fede suffering, but we must do if we want to have a minimal chance of survival. If we do not, die. And he will suffer great pain so made to suffer, let him struggle with the hope of salvation. You can take it. You must bear it.'s strong ". Esther looked at me a few seconds and said "You're right. We must try. We ".
When we look back to the table, we saw that the bottle of whiskey and argued that Ivan was hitting a shot, was at the end. He had already delivered a lot of alcohol and Fede moans were less intense. This and uttered nonsense and looked at the room and everyone present with a lost look. Ivan said "This drunk enough. It's time you do what you have to do ... ". Esther Elena ordered to cut her shirt with scissors. When this was done, Esther wiped the groin area with gauze soaked in iodine and another substance and made a mark with a pen in the area incision. Ivan introduced him part of a towel in his mouth with the intention Fede to bite hard when the operation began. He then grabbed him and Eduardo strong, pinning and Esther took the knife and prepared to cut. She froze under the knife just inches from the skin. It remained a few long seconds in which everyone watched. In the end, walked away from saying between sobs Fede "I can not ... I can not ..." and crying. Esther Eduardo grabbed the robe and shouted "Do it! For heaven's sake, do it! We are all suffering the same as you! Over with the fuck up! ". Esther looked at him with eyes drenched in tears and said a " Ok ". Eduardo returned to his place and grabbed by the legs while Fede Esther picked up the scalpel again and again focused the incision. For a moment I thought he returned to take back again, but it was not. He must be cut in the skin of Fede and this, noting that the knife plunged into your skin, let the towel in his mouth and uttered a piercing cry that rang throughout the room, while stirred in a way that broke away from Eduardo and Ivan. They returned to immobilize rapidly and the second put the towel back in mouth. I have recorded the way they pressed against the teeth while tears flowed from his eyes in pain. The cut was clean and precise. Elena started to cleanse the blood gushing from the wound and that's when Bethlehem and I had to intervene. As Esther commanded us, we put four clips at both ends of the court, getting through this that the wound is open enough for Esther to work more easily. While Elena, following orders, cleaning the blood, Esther continued intervention. He used a couple of utensils while Fede was writhing in pain and uttered gasps. This lost consciousness twice and when I recovered, it was brutal. Seemed that their eyes were going out of their sockets. See this horrified me. When looked away to forget what was happening, I saw the windows of the room door Hans, Mary and a couple of faces that did not recognize, all watching. Esther
appendix and found the bag outside. I had never seen that part of the body and I do not know if this was normal appearance that was so repugnant or, conversely, was because of the infection. Using scissors, cut Esther this and began to clean the area. When he finished, I provided the needle and thread to sew that. I took a few minutes to do this I guess that proved Fede hours. He then introduced part of the intestine inside and when did this, something happened that we did not expect. Fede again spit in the towel and began to vomit in all directions. Ivan was the one that took the brunt, but nevertheless, do not let a single moment. Esther and Helen started to clean the wound area, but it was impossible. Fede not stop screaming and trying to escape from Ivan and Eduardo. Esther started screaming "Hold it tight!" and at that moment, the wound started to sprout a powerful jet of blood that I soak them both. The jet lost power but did not stop to get out more and more blood. Fede uttered cries superhuman. Esther, soaked in blood and face with horror, began to pressure the wound and told us to us to get the bags of blood for transfusion, because it was losing a lot of blood. We did as she tried to stop the bleeding. To no avail. That's when Fede stopped screaming. At first we thought he had fainted, but when I look for the pulse Ivan gave us the bad news. He was dead. We had been killed in full operation, perhaps for something we had done wrong. Esther collapsed on the floor and broke out to mourn. His appearance was regrettable. Blood covered her entire face and all her gown dripping. Elena also began to mourn and hugged Bethlehem me. I looked at Edward and Ivan, who looked at me with an expression of sadness. I will not deny that I also began to mourn. We did what we could and nothing had helped. She had suffered terribly at all. What did we do wrong? The confusion was short lived. Fede started to move an arm and it made me scream Esther "is not dead! Alive!" . I could only cry "departs! Run!". Eduardo Iván and realized that it was all about and a jump away. The first Elena dragged him, but Esther was left standing there. Fede stood for rapid movement, pushing foam and blood mouth, and fell on Esther, falling on her. This did not expect this reaction, but even so, given time to prevent the body revived Fede bit him. This was over and she grabbed the neck avoiding that drove in the teeth.
Ivan and I jumped on Federal and grabbed her from behind, we get to launch the back of the room. It landed on a cabinet where they kept part of surgical and shattered on impact. He soon stand up again and again for us. I searched desperately for the gun he was carrying with me an hour before but no longer was wearing, had left the room Fede. This hit a jump in our direction and we all depart. This fell from hills and slammed into some chairs. Ivan took the tray where it was the surgical material and struck him in the back. As expected, nothing helped. Eduardo repeated the same thing with a chair, but this only seemed to get enraged over. Suddenly, his aim fixed on me and started running. Ivan tries to stop taking him by the arm but it was useless, it pulled away. When mine was almost over and the cries of Bethlehem in the background, took the mat and threw it over. This got stop it for a few seconds, long enough that I could arm myself with a scalpel. When I made up, stabbed in the head, but nothing helped. What was up with his mouth open, which led to my face, when something has taken away from him. A steel tie neck imprisoned him and had shot out backwards. Two ties seized him and pinned him. It was Michael and two others with ties to restrain dogs. While the other two kept fixed Fede, Miguel knelt before him and whispering a few words in Latin, made him the symbol of a cross on the forehead with the thumb. This did not try to attack Miguel, however, his lifeless eyes were fixed on me. After that, said "Bring it together another ". Ivan I try to avoid saying" No way. I'm sure did not want this final Fede. You have to finish it off and bury ". Miguel replied" You know that here you can not kill or alive or revived. It is one of only two rules. If you do not like, you can go. This does not obligate you to you to stay ". Ivan frowned and Michael told us " I'm sorry what happened. If he is dead, it is because God had such plans for him. Now the towering know what to do with it ... ". Not finished speaking when Ivan dealt a blow that made him fly out and land on the table tipped over. Ivan was furious. Miguel rose again and stood before him again. Ivan looked at him and repeated the same thing. Dealt a further blow. The two members of the community went rapidly from the Fede plant room. Michael stood up again and stood in front of Ivan. This looked at him with wide eyes, but it struck again. Then the other said "Are you done, brother?" . No answer. Ivan left the room without saying a word.
appendix and found the bag outside. I had never seen that part of the body and I do not know if this was normal appearance that was so repugnant or, conversely, was because of the infection. Using scissors, cut Esther this and began to clean the area. When he finished, I provided the needle and thread to sew that. I took a few minutes to do this I guess that proved Fede hours. He then introduced part of the intestine inside and when did this, something happened that we did not expect. Fede again spit in the towel and began to vomit in all directions. Ivan was the one that took the brunt, but nevertheless, do not let a single moment. Esther and Helen started to clean the wound area, but it was impossible. Fede not stop screaming and trying to escape from Ivan and Eduardo. Esther started screaming "Hold it tight!" and at that moment, the wound started to sprout a powerful jet of blood that I soak them both. The jet lost power but did not stop to get out more and more blood. Fede uttered cries superhuman. Esther, soaked in blood and face with horror, began to pressure the wound and told us to us to get the bags of blood for transfusion, because it was losing a lot of blood. We did as she tried to stop the bleeding. To no avail. That's when Fede stopped screaming. At first we thought he had fainted, but when I look for the pulse Ivan gave us the bad news. He was dead. We had been killed in full operation, perhaps for something we had done wrong. Esther collapsed on the floor and broke out to mourn. His appearance was regrettable. Blood covered her entire face and all her gown dripping. Elena also began to mourn and hugged Bethlehem me. I looked at Edward and Ivan, who looked at me with an expression of sadness. I will not deny that I also began to mourn. We did what we could and nothing had helped. She had suffered terribly at all. What did we do wrong? The confusion was short lived. Fede started to move an arm and it made me scream Esther "is not dead! Alive!" . I could only cry "departs! Run!". Eduardo Iván and realized that it was all about and a jump away. The first Elena dragged him, but Esther was left standing there. Fede stood for rapid movement, pushing foam and blood mouth, and fell on Esther, falling on her. This did not expect this reaction, but even so, given time to prevent the body revived Fede bit him. This was over and she grabbed the neck avoiding that drove in the teeth.
Ivan and I jumped on Federal and grabbed her from behind, we get to launch the back of the room. It landed on a cabinet where they kept part of surgical and shattered on impact. He soon stand up again and again for us. I searched desperately for the gun he was carrying with me an hour before but no longer was wearing, had left the room Fede. This hit a jump in our direction and we all depart. This fell from hills and slammed into some chairs. Ivan took the tray where it was the surgical material and struck him in the back. As expected, nothing helped. Eduardo repeated the same thing with a chair, but this only seemed to get enraged over. Suddenly, his aim fixed on me and started running. Ivan tries to stop taking him by the arm but it was useless, it pulled away. When mine was almost over and the cries of Bethlehem in the background, took the mat and threw it over. This got stop it for a few seconds, long enough that I could arm myself with a scalpel. When I made up, stabbed in the head, but nothing helped. What was up with his mouth open, which led to my face, when something has taken away from him. A steel tie neck imprisoned him and had shot out backwards. Two ties seized him and pinned him. It was Michael and two others with ties to restrain dogs. While the other two kept fixed Fede, Miguel knelt before him and whispering a few words in Latin, made him the symbol of a cross on the forehead with the thumb. This did not try to attack Miguel, however, his lifeless eyes were fixed on me. After that, said "Bring it together another ". Ivan I try to avoid saying" No way. I'm sure did not want this final Fede. You have to finish it off and bury ". Miguel replied" You know that here you can not kill or alive or revived. It is one of only two rules. If you do not like, you can go. This does not obligate you to you to stay ". Ivan frowned and Michael told us " I'm sorry what happened. If he is dead, it is because God had such plans for him. Now the towering know what to do with it ... ". Not finished speaking when Ivan dealt a blow that made him fly out and land on the table tipped over. Ivan was furious. Miguel rose again and stood before him again. Ivan looked at him and repeated the same thing. Dealt a further blow. The two members of the community went rapidly from the Fede plant room. Michael stood up again and stood in front of Ivan. This looked at him with wide eyes, but it struck again. Then the other said "Are you done, brother?" . No answer. Ivan left the room without saying a word.
Since then, we were shattered. We lost a good friend. Another one behind us. Worst of all who died in the most absurd. He has not done fighting, but a disease that does little more than a year, would have saved his life by a simple operation at the hands of professionals. Never get used to this new world and the new order of the incomprehensible. We've tried our best and we've only got screw up. I can not forgive that we have not found another solution rather than operate as originally. We have been a reckless and ignorant. Only we have suffered and died for our guilt. We have killed him. So does Ivan. Yesterday, after what happened, I visited him. He was in his room, broken. Nothing but me, broke to mourn. See that six-foot closet, crying, I sank even more. Between sobs, did not stop complaining. He said that could save your life, but we screwed up. Who did not deserve to suffer as he did. He regretted not having sought another solution instead of proposing the issue of substitute for anesthesia. He says he should have sought anesthesia at another hospital instead of having recourse to alcohol. As I could, so calm, but when I left, I collapsed. At the corner of a hallway and burst drop me to mourn. I stayed there until I met Esther, which she hugged me, crying and saying also "Sorry, sorry ... my fault ... just mine ..." . I had no strength to say no. It not your fault, but I could not tell. We're all sunk. Ditto Bethlehem. All. To Hans, who barely knew Fede. I tried talking to Michael to let us give a "best final" Fede and to bury him, but he denies it completely. All it says it will do is spend the morning mass.
for me, to stick by his fucking ass mass. I just want to end the agony of Fede and give a decent burial. Does not deserve to be one of those things against which we struggle every day. Not worth it. Neither he nor anyone.
- Erik -
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